Throw out the technique

I am in for the Philly Sprint on June 27 now. Ready to defeat my fears of crashing again. It probably seems silly, but I am a little afraid to go back, that is why I didn't sign up for the Olympic while it was open. It wasn't a bad crash. And I could crash in any race really. I just, am scared. But it is a little bit irrational. I could crash my bike in training, in a race, I could crash in my car, it's not a good reason for not doing things. There are always things to be afraid of, bad things that can happen, but it's not a reason to avoid something, or to hide from it. So, back to Philly Tri I go. In the Sprint, but still to Philly. I am much happier to be racing here than at the "Pancake". And I wasn't up to driving down to DC. Not to mention, I have no clue as to the status of my wetsuit right now.Here's a picture of me at Philly in 2007 with my award. Hopefully I will have a good result there again this year.

I felt a little better today. I had some stomach pain towards the end of the work day, but nothing like yesterday. I was scheduled for a day off training. But I took yesterday off. And I had planned to go to masters. I decided to skip masters because I was worried once I got home I would not feel up to coming back and I needed a good nights sleep. But I did go to the pool to swim. I had my workout for tomorrow printed. When I got there Oscar was there. It was a bit too much technique stuff for him. He had to swim fast and go! So, we sort of did the workout, but without the technique work...
200 wu
3x50 kick on side, swim back
12x150 on 2:45, (Oscar and then Laura and Liam who joined in midway did 200's) I think I kept most if not all under 2:15 and some I was going by the 100 at 1:25!
10x50m kick on back on 1:00 no fins, barely made/missed some of these and did the 9th one easy free to catch up... My kick is not as strong as it used to be.
200m cd
Ok, so I didn't get the technique stuff in, but, it is good for me to swim with people much faster because I really have to push myself and I don't always do this on my own even when I am trying to.
2850m total

Fear is a darkroom where negatives develop. ~Usman B. Asif

He who fears to suffer, suffers from fear. ~French Proverb

Anything I've ever done that ultimately was worthwhile... initially scared me to death. ~Betty Bender