Out of the Funk

I decided for the first time I think ever to DNS a race. Actually, one other time I did it, in 2004 I chose to skip a race in Maryland that I had signed up for to do one closer in Staten Island--The Flat as a Pancake Tri cause I didn't want to drive all the way to Maryland pay for hotel, you know all that junk. Well, it turned out well that time. I got 2nd overall and became good friends with first and third place finishers Bridget and Joanna. So, I guess it worked out.

It was a difficult decision for me to decide not to go to race Columbia. I really like the race. It is a nice course, suits me well, it is very well organized, and there were so many other people racing that it would have been fun to see. The last month and even more has been exhausting for me. The divorce, work, my exam, illness, friendships. I like to think I can do it all, like I've done this before, I can handle it. But, I haven't done this before, and I don't have to take all this on. I'm not a superhero and it doesn't take anything away from me to scale back a little and take a deep breath and say, this is just a little too much for me right now. I'm still awesome and even more so if I can realize that I don't have to and that I can't do it all and that I am wearing my mind and my body down trying to do it.

So Friday after work I went home and fell asleep right away. No workout. No workout in the morning either. Matt texted me in the evening and asked me what I was going to do about Columbia as he was also on the fence. He has been in a funk too with work being crazy and then being sick. I stated where I was and that he shouldn't make his decision based on me. He decided not to go. Saturday I made my final decision. And I felt much better after that. Then, we decided to go for a fun ride. Time to get back in shape and have fun again.

We rode from my house and around Round Valley Reservoir, so we got some good hills in. Almost 1:50 total. Humid and some clouds, but a nice warm day. Before we biked they stopped in and said hi to the dogs.


Frito says...Ok this Matt guy...he's ok...for a guy.
Frito looking angry cause he knows we are not going running.
Why is she making me do this stupid pose? And to be honest...I have no clue...but he looks cute!

Cooper, aka The Otter, says please can I come along, I know how to Bark! Oh you aren't Barking?
Cooper yawns all the time.
Out near the halfway point at the reservoir with Super Genine!

It was a fun ride and exactly what I love about the sport! Having fun and getting outside!

In the pm I did some strength training. I am weak! Strength goes away fast! For me at least. I'm looking forward to getting back in shape.

Today I slept in and took two naps. Went to the store and bought $120 worth of food, well including dog food, treats and poop bags. Going to have super veggie stir fry, burritos, and chili for my main meals this week! And got lots of fresh fruit and veggies! My swim was lots of IM stuff. Haven't done that in awhile. It was fun but challenging.
500wu
4x75m pull on 1:45 at varying speeds
4x100m on 2:15 IM order did fly kick for the 100 fly...I'm a sissy :)
8x100
10x50 on :55
200cd
stretch and abs

Still need to run

What else did I do this week...

Monday--I made my triumphant return to masters swim. Sort of on accident. I didn't get to the pool during the day cause I was busy studying and stuff. Went to therapy. Realized that everything in life is somehow very much like my divorce. Ok, not everything, a lot of things. So that is something to look at. By the time I got to the pool, it was full of swim team. No room for you! So I called up Genine to see if she wanted to run. I had a running dress and 2 mismatched shoes. And we had a fun little 2 mile or so job around by the Y. And then masters swim.
1000m wu
6x50 streamline kick on back on 1:15
4x50 6 kick on each side, 1 stroke
2x50 fingertip drag
2x50 almost catchup
200-50 catchup, 50 swim
400 in just under 7on 8:30
300 in just under 5 on 6:00
200 in 3:10 on 3:30
100 in 1:29 on 2:00
100 in 1:30 on 2:00
200 in 3:17 on 4:00
300 in 5:15 partially cd
3500m total

Tuesday I biked for 1 hour, was very nauseous and not up for running.
Wednesday I swam. Still felt nauseous. Wanted to run, but felt icky.
600wu
4x50
100 in 1:30
500 in 7:47
100 kick ez
100 in 1:30
5x100 in 1:32-1:36 w/:10 rest
100 ez kick
4x50 in :42-:47
100 cd

Thursday, I had my test and wanted to run easy in the am, to get my brain going, but didn't wake up in time. I felt exhausted after and slept.

I really want to get back to waking up in the morning, working out and feeling good. My migraine medicine is a big part of why I am feeling tired and nauseous I think. And some of it is stress and all the stuff I have gone through. So as the stress gets better, some of it will go away. And I need to do something about the medicine. Cause the side effects aren't worth it anymore.