I hate the post office!

AHHHHH! I HATE the post office! No wonder they are going out of business. I don't get my mail everyday. So it piles up a little. One of my bad habits as I got used to Mark getting it and have not got used to getting it get. Well, several months ago, Mark submitted a change of address for his name to his new address because I was complaining about the obnoxious amounts of his mail that were coming to the house. A reasonable complaint I think. So, he said he fixed it. The mail kept coming. But he said he had submitted the form. I just went to get the mail. 2 things in there--This mail box is VACANT and a letter as of March 30 asking him to confirm if the Change of Address. Um no, this mail box is certainly NOT VACANT, I LIVE AT THIS ADDRESS YOU IDIOTS! Maybe you should have asked ME, the person who LIVES HERE, before stealing my mail? It said for INDIVIDUAL ONLY on the form. WHAT DO THEY NOT UNDERSTAND ABOUT THAT? AHHHH! I just want my mail! And I don't want to deal with idiots at the post office. I shouldn't have to. I didn't move, I don't work for the post office, I wasn't the one that messed up. The post office needs some competition in mail delivery so it would be forced to do a better job than completely miserable. Okay, rant over. Deep breath, not really that big a deal, just, stupid.

Anyway, it is windy windy windy today. I don't remember it being this cold in the spring. Probably just bad memory. I always remember the nice days with the blue skies and flowers blooming and being out biking and running and thinking spring is awesome! Windy and raining days seem to fall to the back of my memory.

I finally booked all my travel arrangements for St. Anthony's. I know it is less than 3 weeks away. I like to keep things interesting like that :) I fly down on Friday the 24th and come back on the 27th, my first time flying Jet Blue to take advantage of their $50 bike fees as opposed to getting ripped off by Continental with their over $100 fees. My rental car cost almost as much as my plane ticket. Nice. If any girls need a roommate or wants to share a rental car let me know.

I also looked over the results and participant list for the Elite Amateur Division. 62 woman racing this year. My goal is to finish top 10. It is a very competitive race and finishing top 10 is tough but attainable. I can do it! I know 3 tough and talented ladies that finished 7, 8, 9 last year, so finishing top 10 is no easy feat! You have to be a great athlete and on top of your game to do it!

I set my alarm to get up early to swim yesterday and turned it off again. I needed the sleep I guess. Work was not as stressful for me. After going to therapy on Thursday and talking about being okay with doing my thing, taking my time to study that I am allotted, and not feeling guilty about it and not feeling guilty about doing what is best for me as long as I know that I am doing a good job, I felt a bit more relaxed. I am learning to not get caught up in the pressure that other people feel. If I am doing what I think is best for me, then I am okay.

What is best for me? Taking time to study. Working at a steady pace every day and minimizing my stress. Having balance between my work and personal life. Not working excessively. Avoiding burnout at work. Recognizing when I am no longer working effectively due to fatigue and calling it a day. Doing what is best for me, for my career, and not letting group pressures or what people are saying affect me.

So, as long as I focus on myself, and doing what I need and not worrying about what other people are saying or what they think, then work is a lot better. I am actually getting excited and motivated because I am getting close to the end of what has been a 2 month long project. Although I think I may have hit another snag in the data, I am so close to finishing it! And then I can move on to something new.

After work I swam. I was tired but I was glad I did it. As I walked into the pool, I stood outside for a moment and said out loud, "Wow! It is sooo nice out!" Kinda wished I was doing something outside. I felt so so on the swim.
400 wu-100 sw, 300w/ 50 stick, 50 swim focusing on hand entry
10x75-25 drill, 25 kick, 25 drill (alternated between fingertip drag, fist drill, and kick on side drill)
2x{300 in 4:45, 50 kick easy :20 rest, 10x25 on :35 sighting practice}
3x200 in 3:26, 3:20, 3:13 w/20 rest (except the first one, got caught talking to someone for awhile...)
100cd
3050m total